Sleepless In Toronto

I didn't update yesterday. Oops. I've been a busy bee trying to get ready for my move and my trip all at the same time. Looks like it'll be two more sleepless nights in a row for me. I move in about 5 hours, then I work till 1am, come home to make sure I packed everything, then hop on a bus to the airport to fly to nashville. I'm stoked, but its gonna be a long day. Currently I'm looking online for new furniture. So far everything is too expensive. Boooo!

Testing 1,2,3

Worst band ever.

Just testing to see if I can post picture blogs with my new sidekick lx. This one is for you Bagel. Doofus!

New Toys and Out of Towners SONNNN...

So today was an awesome day, even though I was bummed to look out the window when I woke up and see that it was snowing. I had the day off, so I slept in till about 1pm. I got ready, had some tea and headed out to the El Mocombo (a venue here in town) where my friends in Red Jumpsuit Apparatus were supposed to be playing. I got there around 4pm and there was no one around and the doors were shut, so I looked around on the net and found that the show was cancelled! NOOOO!!! I haven't seen those guys in ages and I'm bummed they didn't make it to town cause of the snow :( I got back on the subway and went to cash a check and look around the mall downtown for a bit while I waited for my friend Doug to text me that he had made it to the venue. His band was coming from Montreal where they played the night before, so they were late due to the weather. Eventually I heard from him and I went to meet him at the venue. The rest of the night was spent just hanging out and meeting the dudes from the other band. My friend Marc showed up as well to keep me company. At the end of the night, I bought Doug's sidekick LX from him and gave him my old one to use for now till he gets his new blackberry that comes out in a couple weeks. YAY for new toys!! I had a crappy sidekick ID before and it didn't have a camera or anything. So now I have a camera and I can take pics when I don't feel like lugging my new big fancy camera around. That's all that happened today. I'm now sitting in bed and about to go to sleep since I work in the morning. I hope everyone had a great day as well. GOOD NIGT.

So Fresh And So Clean

Today I just slept and hung out at home. I hate having this many days off in a row. At around 8:30pm I went over to my friend Trevors place and did laundry. We watched tv while I waited for my clothes to be done, and then I came home. Now I'm about to shower, have some tea and watch Gossip Girl. I'm so lame. Goodnight

Bestest of Friends

So my friends have come to my rescue and I am going to be able to move into the apartment. Yay friends!! Its been an emotional day/mostly night. Till tomorrow...

Figures

I'm not even going to update on my day because the only part that matters is that due to the previous situation at work on saturday, I received a tiny paycheck. The result? I can't afford to move into my new place. And hey guess what! NEXT paycheck is gonna be tiny too cause I got TWO shifts taken away as punishment, PLUS I have to start paying back the (now pointless) loan I got from my work to move into the apartment. The real kicker is how I'm basically screwing the two nice girls I was going to be living with, AND I'm out $600 that I put down for deposit and won't be getting back. Life rules. Excuse me while I go have a nervous fucking breakdown.

Short Story Short

I slept till 7pm. Went to money mart. Signed the lease on my new apartment. Bought a snack. Went home. I was so lazy today.

Bitch, Bitch, Bitch

So today (technically yesterday now) was mostly a good day up until the last hour and a half of my shift at work. I'm not gonna gossip about it, even though this is a public forum and I can say what I want. But long story short, someone did the same fuck up at work today that I did last week, and they got a fucking slap on the wrist. I don't even think the "punishment" for this other employee could even be considered a punishment. What I got was ten times worse, and I'm pissed about it. Basically that one thing managed to ruin my day. After work I was angry and tired, and felt like getting tattooed, so I got Remi to touch up the trinity on my hand. It looks so sick now! After that I just came home and basically fell asleep instantly around 9pm. I woke back up at 4am and now I'm bored cause I can't get back to sleep. Today sucked.

Why Tired?

So this morning I went to work after having actually slept. I was stoked! Turns out, I was a lot more tired at work today than I was the two days I went on no sleep. Weird. Other than feeling tired, I had a good day. I confirmed my move in date for my new place today. WOO HOO!! I seriously can't WAIT! I just need to find a cheap mattress and a few other things, since I don't own anything. After work, I went to get a veggie samosa. My old, and now again, favorite snack. Extra spicy! Any foods that are veggie and spicy, I love. Anyways, I'm dead tired from having actually gotten sleep (haha), so I'm off to bed. Goodnight.

Chick Magnet

Today was the second shift in a row that I've worked on absolutely no sleep. And I mean NO sleep. I woke up from an accidental nap at 7:30pm last night, and couldn't get back to sleep. This morning I went for coffee nice and early, then got ready for work. When I got to work, my manager gave me an envelope with my name on it. Inside was an email that had been sent to the tattoo shop address. It said the following.....
Subject line "Hook up?"
"This may be COMPLETELY lame, but when I came in to get my nipple pierced two days ago, one of your staff -female, with dark hair and stunning blue eyes, totally caught me off guard and left me stumbling on words a bit as I was trying to convince her to bring me coffee when I'm at work (I work at Noise down the street on Queen) And since I am so lame, and this email does end up getting to someone who isn't just sitting there laughing at me :) give her my number !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Insert number here)"
THANKS :)
Dani

Dani is a girl. HILARIOUS! I'm officially a chick magnet haha! I totally remember who she is, and she was sweet. I have to say I'm totaly flattered and that was a really good part of my day. So cute! Also, as I was walking to the subway to go home, I was super into texting and some guy walked by me and yelled "PRETTY" super loud in my face. It scared the crap out of me, and I'm pretty sure it was a bum. I didn't really see though cause he kept on walking. I'm on fire today. Lesbians and bums. I rule! Anyways, work was good, I went home and immediately fell asleep. And now here I am. Awake. Again. Booooo!! That's all for tonight.

False Alarm

So I found out the situation with my boyfriend. He is in an outpatient program instead of staying at the facility. He's doing well. I'm so glad :) And to those people who are giving me shit about getting back together with him, you can just keep your comments to yourselves. I'm a 26 year old ADULT who can take care of herself. I realize that you care about me, but I could really use support instead of getting a lecture. Tyson is doing all he can to get better, and he deserves a second chance. If you're going to be negative about it, then just stay out of my life. Thanks.

I See the Light

So the last couple days have been up and down as usual. Such is life. Yesterday at work was pretty good, minus the fact that I had some pretty bad anxiety due to the fact that there was a miscommunication as to how things happened the day they cancelled my shift. I won't get into it, but I feel better now that I've cleared things up and told my boss what really happened. I actually went to work yesterday on NO sleep. I had been awake since 10:30pm the night before! After work I had to run errandes, so by the time I got home I had been awake for 24 hours haha! Those errands were 1. picking up my sweet new camera, and 2. looking at an apartment. Picking up my camera took no time at all, so I went for coffee and looked over it and played around. It's awesome! I can't wait to start taking photos!! I just need to get an extra battery for it so I don't have to keep charging the one. After that, I went to view this room for rent in an apartment with two girls my age. I got there and immediately loved the place. The girls and I hit it off right away and I got an email that night saying they had chosen me, and would love for me to be their roommate! Now I just need to come up with the first and last months rent in the next two weeks. UGH! I hate money lol. First and last months rent always kills me. I live in a very expensive city and it's hard to save up a big chunk of money. I'll do my best! Today was a total write off since it was a day off. The "warm" pajamas I got didn't do shit. I'm still freezing my ass off while I "sleep". I can't wait to have my own room where I can actually get a full good nights sleep. My own room. WOW. It's been so long.

Life is a Rollercoaster

It's now just after 8am and I haven't slept yet. I've been up all night since my last post and have gone through multiple emotions. I guess that's what happens when I have a moment (several hours) to myself to sit and just think. I'm in a more positive headspace now. I've realized that the things that suck, are things that are out of my control. The important thing is, I'm trying to best to improve myself, and improve my life. That's all I can really do. Today I'm going to put all my stressful thoughts aside and enjoy my day. In a few moments I'm going to go get my morning coffee and then come back to get ready for work. After work today I'm picking up my new camera, then going to view an apartment. Lets hope this one is THE ONE, so I can finally have my own room and get some friggin sleep! Coffee is calling me. Talk later.

Had to Reach a Low Point Sometime...

So the last two hays have been pretty crappy. Yesterday I didn't work, so I slept in. At least, I tried to sleep in. Its so freezing, and I have such little blankets (hardly blankets) that I keep waking up every half hour or so shivering. Its just been getting colder and colder. I eventually got up and emailed a few people about appointments to view apartments. I got ready and made plans with my friend Palmer to go see a movie. He picked me up and we went to Honest Ed's so I could see about buying a cheap blanket. I couldn't afford a blanket, so I improvised and instead bought a $5 giant hoodie and a $3 pair of huge fleece sweatpants to keep me warm while I sleep. It was off to the movie theater from there, and we went to see Milk. This movie was amazing!! If you haven't seen it, please do! One of the best movies I've seen in a long time. After the movie, I get a text from the girl I'm staying with curently, and she says she's having one of her guy friends stay over. I'm annoyed at the lack of notice since its already midnight and I was planning on going straight home to sleep since I worked the next morning. I didn't want to complain though cause its her house, and she's nice enough to let me stay. So I just got Palmer to take me to his place in Burlington since it was too late to find a friend in the city to stay with for the night. Unfortunatly, I was woken up at closer to 10am, than the 9:30am that was discussed, and I needed time to shower so I didn't go into work looking like a slob. I called work and asked if it would be ok that I come in at noon instead of 11am. I didn't think this would be an issue because its been slow at the shop and they need to cut hours where they can. Unfortunately for me, the girl I was staying with ALSO called in and asked to come in late. I'm pretty sure work was ticked that we both called in to come late, so I then got a phone call telling me my shift was cancelled. FUCK. I really needed those hours, and it was a 10 hour shift I lost. All because I didn't want to lay awake all night listening to two people fucking, like I had to last time. I REALLY need my own apartment. I'm tired of being kept up, woken up, and stepped all over. I want to go to work, come home to quiet, go to bed early, repeat. I then got really depressed thinking about my living situation and how losing that shift was gona hurt come pay day, and mostly how I felt extremely guilty for having let my work down. I love my job, and everyone there. I always feel extremely anxious and beat myself up if I feel like I've dissapointed them in some way. Anyways, feeling depressed, I went back to sleep and just slept till 4pm. Palmer then woke me up and drove me home. Girl I'm staying with texted and said she was staying with her mom for the weekend, so I was at least grateful for the alone time. I went right back to sleep when I got home. It is now 10:50pm and I haven't eaten a single thing, not that I'm even hungry. I'm stressed. I got a text message from my boyfriend, making it clear he isn't in detox like he said he would be. I feel angry and humiliated. I got so much crap from a lot of people when I got back together with him after what happened over the holidays. I reassured them and defended him by saying things would be different. That he was getting the help he needed. Well don't I look like a fool. Another promise broken. I can't even get a hold of him to ask why. Again, my heart is broken and I feel let down. So this brings me to now. This very second. I'm going to go back to sleep, for that is all I can really do. I need to go back to work tomorrow and put on a happy face. It seems impossible now, but I know it'll be ok once I get there. I'm so thankful to have a job that I really love, with people I really love and care about. They always make me smile. Ok, well....goodnight.

The Perfect Day.....a day late

Sooo yesterday I basically had the perfect day. For once I woke up on time for my morning shift at work and didn't have to rush. It was refreshing being able to take my time getting ready in the morning. I even got to the subway station in enough time to get my morning coffee and bagel before work. I had a fantastic 10 hour shift at work that seemed to just fly by. I always have fun at work, but sometimes a 10 hour shift feels like a 10 hour shift haha! After work I went to H&M to use the gift card I got for christmas. I had been wanting this one pair of shoes from there for a couple months, and was so sad to see that they were nowhere to be found when I arrived. I asked a sales associate about them and she went to look in the back for me. Low and behold, there was ONE pair left hidden in the back and they just happened to be MY size! YAY! After I bought the shoes I went to the atm to see if I had at least $5 for dinner (I was pretty sure I didn't), only to find that I magically had $80!! SCORE! So I decided to treat myself to a new pair of cheap jeans that I LOOOVE. Happy with my new stuff, I went to Chipotle to get a delicious veggie burrito. I took it home and finished up my night eating in bed and watching a movie. Best day ever! Today was pretty sweet as well. I worked all day and now I'm going to go home and sleep. Tomorrow is my day off and I have a few errands to do, and an apartment to go look at. That's all for now. Peace.

Today is a Write Off

I felt like shit all day. All I did was sleep and chat online via sidekick. Extremely uneventful. I have a gnarly headache that won't go away. Tomorrow should be better cause I work.

Lazy Day

So today (technically yesterday since its now almost 6am on tuesday) was a good day. One of those slow lazy days. Tara, Marc and I slept in and just bummed around Taras apartment for a bit. We walked around town and went to grab some lunch. I had a delicious grilled veggie sandwich that was a little more greasy than they made it out to be on menu description. I like to eat healthy, but it was too good to be upset about it for long! Haha! We then went to print copies of Taras resume, and walked around with her while she applied for jobs. After that, we went to Betsey Johnson where I tried on a million cute party dresses!! There was this really cute green sequin one with black stripes and polkadots that I wanted, but they didn't have a small enough size :( I've recently become obsessed with party dresses, and want to have a giant closet full of them! I guess I need my own apartment first huh? Soon enough. So anyways, I was worn out from walking around all day, so I came home and popped on a dvd and fell asleep to it with a couple cute kitties snuggling with me. Eventually Tellie came home and we ordered pizza (eating healthy was already ruined for the day) and ate it in bed while finishing off season 5 of Nip/Tuck. All in all, it was a pretty fantastic lazy day. Life at the moment is good :)

Oops!

So it looks like I managed to neglect my blog for the last 7 months. OOPS!! It is now 2009!! So much has happened! I spent a good three months in Arizona with Tyson and just hanging out with his family. He was on tour a lot of the time, but it was nice to be there when he got home, and to say goodbye when he left again. I then went on the road with  him for a couple weeks and ended up in Toronto where i've been living for the last three months. Again, I flew to Arizona to be with Ty for my birthday (dec 23rd) , christmas and new years. Christmas eve was also our one year anniversary. It was the most emotional and rough visit we've had, but I'm hoping it turns out for the best. As of now, we're on a break. For the last three months I've been living in Toronto and working at a tattoo shop downtown. I LOOOOVE my job and everyone there. I couldn't ask for a better place of employment. Everyone I work with is like family to me, and it's my favorite place to be, even on my days off haha! In a couple weeks, I'm flying to Nashville to visit some friends for just over a week. A lot of my friends have moved there recently, so it'll be nice to visit them all at once! I'm also thinking of visiting friends in LA the first week of March....we'll see. So anyways, that's all that's been going on. Of course there are a million details I've left out cause it's just too much to type. I hope everyone had a great holiday season and a fantastic beginning to 2009. I had lost my password, so that's why i wasn't updating, but I've got it now so I'll try and update more. Peace.